You made me a mom...that first minute when I held you, I knew my life would never be the same. Everyday I still can't believe how much you have grown, how sweet you are, and how you seem to get cuter with every second. I have watched you become best friends with your dad, laugh harder than I thought possible, and fall madly in love with books. I have felt you hug me like you might never let go. I have watched your face completely light up when I pick you up from school and it takes everything I have not to tear up each time you run so fast into my arms. It makes the entire day...worth it.
Your little brother is going to be here in a few short months and while I worry about life with two children, changing 100 diapers a day, and when to move you out of the nursery...I worry most about you. You are my heart, my everything, my sweet sweet boy. I worry that for one millisecond you won't feel as loved as you do now, I worry that you will feel neglected, even for just a moment when the baby comes. And my goodness if you do, I won't know how I will forgive myself.
You deserve the world and your world is about to change...luckily you don't have any idea right now how much...and there are days I wish I could truly explain it to you. But the thing is...I don't really know myself.
I promise to always hug you the minute I see you. I promise to always make time for you, even on the busiest of days. I promise to always read that extra book, sing that extra song, or take that extra time to just snuggle with you. I promise to still be the best mom I can be to you, even though my heart and hands will be a little fuller.
I worry so much...some days I feel like you don't deserve this. You don't deserve to have your life turned upside down so soon...you deserve more time as an only child. Other times I think about what an amazing gift it will be to have a brother to look up to you, to build forts with, and to most importantly be your best friend.
I truly hope that the good will outweigh the bad and our family growing by one more will bring with it more snuggles, more laughter, and more love. I hope that you feel just as loved every second of the day as you do now and always know that you will always be my baby.
love, mom